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CMN

"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be." -Anonymous

No matter how many times we let each other go, we're always back together, it happens every time. & Even though we barely have anything in common, and we butt heads like crazy. There is one thing that we do have in common, we both have maaadfuccken love for each other,<3

A day w/ my King

Yes! My baby came home, finally back to the Oc. Well he comes over today at like 10 in the morning and he got me breakfast! Hes so cuutee(; We just sat there, ate, and watched TV together. & Just like I said in the other blog, I was gonna tax him with my love! And I sure did('= Kekekekee! Then later, we just hung out at my house for a bit til it was 1ish, and we walked over to his house. Then we meant up TimmyLa! Mhmhmh, basically after that I just sat around and I just watched the two boys dance,('=
Today would be the best day. I just spent the whole day bonding with my baby, and I feel so much closer to him. It feels right. It feels like he's really my boyfriend, and I'm his girlfriend. I look at him, and I can't imagine hes the guy that I've been fighting with. The guy I've been arguing with. Being with him it feels so relaxing and peaceful. He just makes me so happy to the fullest extent. Now that I finally got to be with him for the whole day, and I see how much he changed. I feel like there's a completely different connection between us. Not a bad one, but a very good one <3 So so much closer. Calvin Nguyen, you're everything I ever wanted in a guy, and I know we've got something way more than just the 'lil kidz' kind of love.

Definitions

I really think the definition of love is happiness, and the definition of happiness is love. Its like a 2-way kind of thing. You can't have one or the other, its always both. If you're unhappy that isn't love. If you're sad that isn't love. Love is always happiness. Happiness is always love. Love + Happiness = Boy&Girl. I can't think of another way to make it any simpler. I have a new way of looking at things, understanding things, a new mind set. Eventually the make up love, the I'm sorrys are gonna get old. Just eventually. Things can never be the same, things can't just continue working out, things can't keep on going...

"I only go to you for happiness. But you don't make me happy anymore, so whats left?" -Queenie

Tonight

Fucccck, I hate it when hes right. )'= I love getting lectures from mah Daddy, he always finds a thing to make me feel better. Always finding a way to keep on trying, keep on going, & keep on fighting like a soldier. Cos at the end of the day, its all worth it. But how long do I have to keep on fighting? I just want a goddamn brighter day, I hate continuously having these dark nights.

"The greater things in life make the greatest pain. Its love. We need it to survive, yet it hurts us so much. But when it doesn't hurt us, its the greatest feeling of all." - DaddyHJV

Trading spaces

I'll give you what it feels like to be in my shoes, and how it fucken feels like being put second. I always had a jealousy issue. Bitches these days gotta understand, whats mine is mine, not yours. I don't even know who to believe, the bitch who told me or you. You make things even worst when I confront you about it. I just wanna hear those calming words, "Of course not, you're the only girl. Don't you cry, it's gonna be okay." Just those simple words, would just make me feel 10x better. But nope, it turns into a fucken tantrum. Pretty much like how a 4 year old would handle it. Urgh, I really wish the world never invented the the private calling, thing. My life would be so much easier.

"I'd rather trust a woman's instincts, than a man's words." -Unknown.

10 31 08

You give the words "forever" a whole new meaning. & You're the person that's willing to keep that promise. This summer was just a setback, I love you baby. Calvin Minh Nguyen, 9 months & we still got it <3

1 more day

After weeks, long days, & countless hours, of not seeing him, I finally get to see him TOMORRRROOWW. Yay, I can't wait. I'm not gonna say much cos I'm in such a bad mood, I'm super really tired, and I've got terrible stomach cramps. But hopefully after having the nightly phone talks with my baby, he'll make me feel all better & I can go to bed in a good mood. He always finds a way to do it, I don't know how, but he does! Anyways, night night world :)

New POV

For you noobs, POV means point of view! Haha, just kidding. I'm a noob myself, I just learned "POV" on urbandictionary the other day. So today, mhmh. Me & Christy, busted like 10 missions, and we accomplished every single one! One including putting in the mini fridge inside my room. I love my room, it has everything you can think of besides the A/C ];< WELL FINALLY, Christy takes me out for crawfish. It was MHMHH, yummy. Evey thing went well til the check came out. Then we found out we were fucken 2 dollars short. LMAO, I looked at her & shes like panicking and I go fuck it Christy, lets fucken run it. We got up, walked out as if nothing happened, and the moment we past the door. WE RAN TO CARLS JR. Fucken funny shit, it was the highlight of my day. Now that's what you Partner in Crime :) Christy Huynh, all day eveeer'daaay! Well I was thinking, a whole lot lately. About meat and what an animal had to go through just to get on my table. And today I thought about it even more, when I was eating the crawfish. It was just there, on its back all dead. It made me feel so, urgh. I really even could enjoy my meal. It was just so sad, I don't even know why. Then it made me realize all of the other things that I ate, and all of the animals that had to die cos of me. So I Sydnee Queenie Le, will be going vegetarian for the next week & if I can, I wanna go longer. I know how it feels like when you get hurt, maybe not physically but mentally & verbally. So I'm trying to put myself in their little "feet".

Over booked

So this Saturday the 15th. Oh boy oh boy. Why am I so careless about the times? We need more hours in the day, I swear. I have like 3 things going on. And its like really big events that I can not just not attend. So I have Dianna Nguyen Uncle's wedding at 8am, baby's family picnic at 2pm, and then I've got Christy & my kickback at 5. What am I suppose to do? I guess I can't really make it to Dianna Uncle's wedding, but I'll be sure to take her out another day cos I promised her I would come and help out,('= And mhmh. I guess I'm gonna go to the picnic, and come back before 5. And if I'm late, Christy can watch over everything. LMAO, she makes me laugh how she thinks shes the Queen. We all know, I am ('= Isn't that right, Christy? + Ladies who I invited to my kickback, make sure you tell me if you could make it or not, ASAP! Cos so far I have 12 girls. The more the better :)


HyphhyHOANG (7:59:45 PM): HOMEEEEGIRL
HyphhyHOANG (7:59:47 PM): WHATS RONG? =[
^ I love my homeboy. When my status changes from nothing to ")'=", he's always the first to ask/see if I'm okay :)

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So babyboy, called me at 2am. We had such a great talk. He likes to sing me songs :) Hes so cute. Just 3 more fucken days until I get to see him after like 2 weeks! On Saturday hes taking me to his family picnic. I'm so scared )'= Lets hope everything things out okay!

I'm just ...

Looking at it, waiting for the words "Calvin Nguyen" go across the screen, because you promised me you would.

T-shirt

I'm sitting here just about to tell you that I wanna end things. Not end, just wanting some space. A little room to breathe for a bit. Yet I come over in my closet, I look inside. I see the t-shirt that you gave me of yours. I put it on, I realized I missed you so much. Whats wrong with me? How come every time I'm about to tell you what I want, you give me that sweet talk of yours, and you turn everything around. "Hes the King of mixed signals, and I'm the Queen of second thoughts." I found that line today, It made me think about you cos its so true. Its one thing now, and another thing next. Just fuck it. Fuck it all. Fuck every thing. Fuck the compromise. Fuck the fighting. Just go with the flow baby. Stop planning out things. Stop saying things, and making promises me can't keep. I know we can't. We never follow through to what we say. Just be happy for what we're doing one day, and stop worrying about the next. We both know we're gonna always love each other no matter what. And I'm so positive that you're the boy that I'm going to marry one day when I'm 34. No kidding. I just wanna kickback and have fun. There's just something about you that makes me fall for you so hard, but the pain you caused me I can't take. But I've fallen hard enough to not even care anymore. Right now, we have no trust in each other. So you know what baby? You've got a long way to go to prove it to me. And so do I. But I know I can earn your trust. I just know it.

Ne-yo

Why did I ever use to hate you? I can admit every time I listen to your songs, it always made me cry cos it made me think of the past. But now, I relate to it so much. Who ever discovered you, is like the greatest person alive. I love your songs. Right now, I'm listening to "A Little Space". I'm gonna write my thoughts in the other blog, not this one ('=

My looks

People always ask me...why do I take so long to get ready? Well here to prove it to you, I gotta go through a lot of steps. And this is just hair & make-up. Image my clothes & body too. So lettttmee break it down for yah- My face. I'm that type of girl that has that white ass pale face, with a brown sparkly bronzer & a touch of blush on my cheeks. I don't do much to my eyes besides that thick black eyeliner cat tail, a little mascara, and just a light peachy eye shadow just to blend it out. My hair, if you ask me If I tease it, I actually don't. I don't even use a comb to do my hair. I just blow dry, and straighten my hair, and I use my hands just to "puff" it up a little, & of course that bobby pin to keep my bangs from getting into my face. And you know girls, a lot of hairspray. Haha, Christy Huynh says I'm the reason why we aren't gonna have an O Zone layer anymore cos of massive usage of hairspray. My lips, as you can see I've got these big nigga lips. I can't work the red lips, but I think I can work the really pinky pink look. I just have this really nice pink lip stick that I use then I go over it in a pink lip gloss. Around my corners of my lips, Its really really red, I have no idea why but its super red. So I take my foundation sponge and I go around it just to cover it up. So yep, that's the "Queenie" face.

Worst

I had the worst phone call with you, Calvin Minh Nguyen. When you come back home, I'm going to tax you so hard, you're gonna regret pissing me off. I'm going to like attack you with so many kisses, you won't even be able to breathe. I'm going to like hug you so tight, you can't even move. I'm going to like pin you down, and I'm going to make you tell me reasons why you love me, and if you don't, I'm going to take you a feather & tickle you till you do. THAT'S HOW MUCH YOU PISSED ME OFF. Tomorrow you better make it all better]:< I really hate today, I really tonight. Writing this out, makes me so relived. The only best conversation I had with you today baby, was when you sang to me.

calvieDAelephant (10:14:43 PM): aye aye shawtyy
calvieDAelephant (10:14:49 PM): put your sweet little thing my waay
QUEENIEsydnee (10:15:18 PM): Why don't you come my way, baby ?
QUEENIEsydnee (10:15:19 PM): ('=
calvieDAelephant (10:15:26 PM): i aintt really tryna spit no game
calvieDAelephant (10:15:30 PM): i just really wanna know yourr namee
calvieDAelephant (10:15:31 PM): (:
QUEENIEsydnee (10:15:39 PM): Oh so thats what you want?
QUEENIEsydnee (10:15:44 PM): I'm Sydnee, but you can call me tonight <3
calvieDAelephant (10:15:48 PM): LMAO
calvieDAelephant (10:15:52 PM): i will babe
^ IM's like this from you, just make my day. We need more of these.

Over all tonight, I just wanted to like talk to you & have those laughs. But we didn't and I got upset. I kept on trying, but you kept on getting mad. After like a half an hour talk. I gave up & so did you. So I'm not gonna even try.. cos I know even though we might be fighting right now, tomorrow it's gonna be fine. Cos we can never stand being mad at each other for long. That's one of the things that I love about us,(';

Why ...

Why do I let you disrespect me, why do I let you call me things I don't wanna be called...? I hate it. Do I ever call you anything other than babyboy, baby, or babe? I don't think so. I call you mean stuff when they're necessary. You call me mean shit, every time you get a chance. Yeah, I know you got your mood swings & your unhappy at times. But can you really not control the words or the names that you say & call me?

DaddyHjv

Today's the day you might leave me for 4 whole months. And I really hope you don't. So there's some things on my mind I would like to tell you before you go. Just in case. You're literary my favorite-est person in the whole wide world. You're always there for me when I need you most. Basically your there for me when I'm in need of, anything. You always look out for me, and you're the type of person that I can always count on. Even down to the tiny little things, I can count on you. When I'm lost, you're there for me. When I've got nothing to do, your always there to me out. When I'm sick of my songs, you're always there to tell me new ones. & when I'm about to do something I'm not suppose to do, you always pop up in my mind telling me, "to be a good girl." Kekkekeee. You're gonna always be my big strong Daddy, and I'm gonna always be your little "babii", no matter what. ('= Now that's a promise, I'm willing to keep. So Daddy, if you really end up leaving me. I'm going to really really miss you. You have no idea.

Surprise!

I HAD THE BEST SLEEEP EVVVVEER, last night. I didn't wake up in the the middle night, and I slept past 8:30am, for like the first time this week ('; I guess my stress level went down a bunch and there hasn't really been anything on my mind. So that's probably the main reason why I can sleep now. But my gay ass big brother Tino, wakes me up like half an hour ago, around 10 and told me to come outside. I go outside and I see a new car. He just bought a new Honda Accord, its a old car though but it's still new cos we just bought it. If that make sense. He said he's going to drive that car only to work and his Acura TL, is going to be his weekend car. I heard him saying it has to do something with the miles or whatevs. He pinky promised me if I'm going to be good girl, which isn't that hard for me to do, he's going to give me this car in the next couple of years. Its gonna be my first car ('= So all of those plans of me saving up birthday, Chinese new years, & Christmas money to buy my car are long gone! So its good bye 1997 Honda Civic , and hello 2000 Honda Accord! Did I mention, this summer was the best summer I ever had? If I haven't, I'm gonna say it now. HAHA.

Body kit, rims, eveeeeerr'thaang. You sexy beast =));

10:49pm, Mi lovee.

I just had a great talk with you baby ('= Even when he tells me he isn't gonna call me as a punishment cos I kept on complaining. He still does it just to make me happy. ('; In just the next 4 minutes, that 8 days is going to turn into 7. Just another day less I have to wait. & Pfft. I'm so not being a loser and counting down all of the days til your coming home ... okay so maybe I told a little lie! But who hasn't? I've never ever been so excited, ever!
I know we're going to have days where we don't wanna talk to each other. I know one day I'm going to give you the silent treatment. I know one day, you're not gonna call me when you actually tell me you're not gonna call me. I know those days are gonna come. It might not be soon, cos I really hope it doesn't. But I know it will. But you know what? I think I'm going to actually suck it up. Because it doesn't matter if you're not gonna talk to me for a day. It doesn't matter if you don't talk to me for 2 hours, or even 2 seconds. I'll always be happy, because baby- I have my whole life to talk to you, I have my whole life to be with you, <3

L O L

Sql; What do you guys wanna hear now?
Andy; I wanna hear anything but you
Sql; Who sings it?
Cph & Andy; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Sql; Dude just tell me who sings it
Andy; I wanna hear ANYTHING but you
Sql; OHH, FUUCCCK YOU GUUUYYS
^ They always gang up on me & make fun of me ];<

Sick once more

I have the worst headache right now. And I know its nasty, but I just puked twice ];< I feel like I'm sea sick, but I wasn't even on a boat, & my tummy all icky feeling. Gawwd. What is up with me. I always get sick, nowadays. This is like the second time this summer. I hope it goes away quick, cos summer is almost going bye bye. I hate the feeling of being sick. All I wanna do is sleep all day long . Sigh sigh. Well today, Christy didn't even take me out for Crawfish, but we had some yummy Del Taco. I even paid for everything ('; Haha, oh yummy!

BABYBOYCMN, I love you a whole lot. And I'm missing you like crazy right now. But your always so busy and you never have a chance to talk to me ];< You're always playing your "pew pew" games, and I'm always like getting myself ready. You like playing games more than talking to me)'= Watta bad baby. I'm just kidding. I think its so cute how you always win games just for me. I'm always in your mind, always. We need to find a time where its just me & you talking, with no interruptions, ('= God baby, this never felt so right. Its just another 8 days til you come back home. And to be exact another 192 hours. I counted :) I miss your tight tight bear hugs, & your warm yummy kisses. And I know you miss mine too. But who ever said that they were ever faraway? Mwaah :-*

The list of things we need to do together BEFORE summer ends;
-Go to an Tuesday Angel's game
-You sleep over at my house
-Go out & have dinner together
-Have 4958958 million alone dates
-Swim in your pool :)
-Go to the beach
-Shopping
-Eat com ga at 1.99
-Watch a movie @ my house
-Watah a movie @ your house
-Make a C-walk video together!!!
-Take a nice long walk at the park
-Take a nice long walk around the neighborhood block
-Do some goodloving (';
-Go to Chuck E Cheeses!
-Make breakfast, lunch & dinner
-Bake a cake/cupcakes/brownies
-Visit DaddyHjv!
-Build a bear @ Build a Bear w/ Mama Helene♥
^Haha , I can't think of anything else ]:<
But I'll sure think of more later!

New set of eyes.

Last night, we were at it again. And it was just the first day -.- I admit, I wasn't myself. And you admit, you weren't yourself either. So I guess it was both of our fault. You left me one more time on aim last night. I felt my temperature rise, heart skipped just about 2 beats, and my fist curling up into a ball. I basically just grabbed my ipod, jumped into my bed, & just laid there, looking at the ceiling. The all of a sudden I see this light, this light hitting the ceiling. I look down, and its my phone vibrating. I look at the name, and its my baby. He actually cared, he actually apologized first, he actually called me for a goodnight, and we said our "I love yous", and "I miss yous". That was like the highlight of my night. Inside of me, I kept on wanting to talk to him. Oh, how I miss his voice. How I just wanted to continue to talk about how happy he makes me. And how much I love him. But I know, I know hes tired. And I know sleep is really important. For once I stopped caring about myself, and I put him first. And I just told him, that we could talk tomorrow, cos it would be much a better day. Without the fuss, without the drama, and best of all without the fighting.

While we're at it, I'll admit another thing. I've been always looking the bad into things. Always looking for the most negative thing and I keep on putting it all against you, baby. I'm sorry. This is so unreal to me. I don't know why ... Its like you just walked out of my life like 2 months ago, and then all it took was just a one single day and you're back in it again. Its gonna take a lot of changes. But I'll get use to it all. Why look at the bad? When its always something good in it. Why look at the negative? When there's always a positive. I'm going to throw away this old set, and put these new set of eyes on. Because I know the past was the past, and this is our chance to start all over, with a new beginning. We're able to have a new start! You make me cry, you make me so mad to the point where I wanna like punch you, you make me so disappointed, you make me fill my body with anger, yet you make me so happy, you make me laugh, you make me have those butterflies into my tummy. You give me that bittersweet love that, I'm addicted to. I can never stay mad at you for long, because you always have that special magic that gets me to always forgive you. I know for a fact now, I'm the only girl in your eyes. And your the only guy, in mine. I'm finally all yours, and your finally all mine. & I never could have been any happier.


The first night we webcammed this summer. It was about 12:00midnight, I was so tired, I looked like poop cos I had no make up on & I was sick like a dawg];<, but you still called me "pretty". And best of all you still managed to put that smile go across my face.

& I thought you were serious

You constantly play with my emotions. Play with my heart. Telling me you need me, then later, its you leaving me. I really thought it was gonna be different. Urgh . You wanna put me second? I don't wanna take the second spot. I wanna be the first. The one & only. No other spot. What did I ever do wrong to have you ever treat me this way. Telling me shes just a friend. I have eyes, I can see its 'bestfriends'. I know. I'm not dumb. Sigh ... You owe me a big explanation .

So was today a good day?

My PartnerinCrime; Christy is FINALLY taking me out tomorrow and shes buying me yummy crawfish. We're gonna go to Crawfish house! Even though that place gives me tummy aches after, I gotta go through the pain JUST for her('; unceunce CHRISTy (4:28:14 PM): yes, i dont keep my words on other things, but i do keep them for crawfish < Christy if tomorrow you bail out on me, I'm going to use this against you. You promised!

See we can't stay mad for to long
This thing we have its just to strong
Even when we don't get along
We always come around
Its just me, you, we, us, together, apart, whatever, until its done.
Leave just to come right back again.
Leave just to come right back again ...
This song always reminds me of us. My world revolves around you. Whatever we do, we end up loving eachother more. Through all of the fuss, through all of the fighting. I'm glad how we turn out today. This summer was just a setback. I love you baby.

I miss ...

Oh I miss how boys had cooties. I miss how I only said, "I love yous" to my parents. I miss how those 3 meaningful words weren't thrown around so often, and you only said it if you meant it. I've never felt so hurt in my life. What does love mean ..? I don't even know anymore. The only person I know that loves me inside and out, is my baby Jv <3 Jane Vu. The only girl that brings out the inner smiles in me. The only girl that can make me happy after just a 11 minute and 38 second phone call. 3yrs and still going, baby!

The first smiles I had today. V

ZzZZzZzZzZz

I'm up so early. Its so crazy. I can't even go back to sleep. Yesterday was such a fun day, I loved every single moment of it. Till I got home and then I found out my DaddyHjv, might go away. That basically messed up my whole night. But its just a 50/50 chance that he might leave. I really hope he doesn't. Lets hope God listens to my prayers for the next couple of days. I was so tired, I knocked out by like 10:00 last night. Then around 12, I just woke up again. Its been happening to me a lot. And I wake up around like 4am in the morning again. Whats wrong with me, why can't I sleep! I guess there has been a lot of things on my mind lately. I hope he just makes the right decision and doesn't regret it. Cos I'm giving him my whole heart, while hes only giving half. Sigh sigh * I hate how I'm impatient, I hate how I've got such a jealousy issue. What to do .. what to do.

My baby sister Julie Le is leaving today to Florida for 5 fucken days )'= Imma miss her like crazy. Even though its only 5 days, I'm going to feel like something is missing. When I've got shit to handle, she won't be there. When I'm in desperate need of a ride, she won't be there either. When I'm bored out of my mind, she won't be there to talk to either ];< Babyguh came to visit me last night before she would leave today. Sigh sigh. I was I was like small enough to fit into her luggage and go with her. I'll miss you! <3 I can't wait till you come back home. I lovelovelove you. :-*

Last night;
Sql- Shes not that pretty right? I mean look at her
Jl- In that picture she looks cute.
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SQL & JL- EWWWW WATTTTAA FUCKEN UUGGLY BITTCCCCCCH !
^ God I'm going to miss these convos with you ];<

I have really fallen in love ...

with you, Smart Water!

Dear Mother Nature,
Why do you give California such hot weather?! Its seriously frying me up. I'm just sitting here, and I can feel myself sweat. Can you please just cool it down just a little? Like kick down a TINY notch. Cos the hot weather is seriously getting to my head. I've been such a bitch lately cos of this damn weather ];< That's all I'm asking for right now, its just a simple request. Just to make it less so fucken hot. Thank you. Love, Queenie.

I'm sorry to everyone who I've been bitching too or acted like a bitch towards them. Gawd this weather just, Urrrgh. I wish it was winter, where you can snuggle with the one you love, and get warm :) That sounds really good right now. I miss my baby. Sigh sigh* Why can't he just understand that it hurts me. Why can't he just call, and we can finally talk it out. I'm so confused. I'm so lost. What happened to me being strong? Hes my weakness. All of the walls I put up, he always ends up knocking them down...)'=

Paul "Dj Peewhee" Le.

You have made such a big impact in my life. Words can't even describe the love that I have for you. You've always been there for me. Through everything, always giving me second chances, and I always end up messing it up. You're the closest family member I have. It gives me chills every time I think about how me and you share the same blood. I'm so thankful that the world gave me such a wonderful cousin. After reading what you wrote about me, I took the time and I thought about how much "shit" we went through. & I finally realized that I'm always the wrong one. You were just only doing whats best for me, but I was so greedy, I was so stubborn I never listened. I just continued what I was doing, careless about how you would feel. I always tried to hide things from you, knowing that sooner or later you're gonna find out. I don't even know why I even did those type of things, but I guess that's part of what growing up means. You learn from your mistakes. And Paul, you made me realize all of the mistakes that I made. I finally understand why you "scare", and give me "lectures" all the time. Its not because you hate me, its not because you're bored and have nothing else to do. Its only because you care, and you love me. You telling me all of this doesn't effect you, I only effects me. And I would like to thank you, thank you for everything that you have done for me. I love you Cuhhz, always and forever.

Mondays.

The fever, bloody noses, constant coughing, and unable to breathe sickness finally went away ('= I woke up this morning around like 12pm, and I got ready right away. Julie came to pick me up around like 2! Then Christy & I, stopped by Roger's house. Kekeke. I saw my Kevin Ha<3 After like 3 weeks without seeing that felluh, I miss him. Even though we only hung out for like 20 minutes, cos that loser had to go home! Well Christy & I was hanging out at Roger's house for a bit, then we walked back out to Boiling Crab to go eat for Julie's dinner. Yummy Cajun fries & the hot wings, my favvy! Then we took cues, drank tasteas, and walked around. Then my DaddyHjv, came to pick me up & we hung out for a bit then he drove me home ('= He gave me the longest lecture!];< I think hes the first person I like hearing/getting lectures from though. Cos at the end of the day, I always learn something new! I think today was a pretty good day. I bonded with everyone, and everything went great. ("; Well night night world. Going to bed soon. Another great day tomorrow to look forward too. P.S. Happy 14th Birthday Julie Le <3 I love you baby!

Resting.

I'm so sick. I've never felt this sick in my life. My whole body aches. There's a fucken bruise on my ass, and I can't lay down straight. My voice cracks. My arms are so sore because I've been laying on my sides. I cough, and then those yucky mucus shit comes out. Its filling up my throat )'= My left nose I can breathe! My right, has so much shit in it, I can't breathe at all. So I'm like depending on my mouth & left nose to breathe. And I sound like a man. I've been stuck in bed since like 11 this morning. I had to wake up for Church for the first time for the last 4 weeks. Mommy has been lazy to go, and she finally went this week. I hate stupid old guys who check out me & my sister; Shirley every time we walk pass. At least have some respect, we're in God's house. Urgh. After this. I think I'm just gonna lay in bed and watch Disney Channel all day long. I don't even wanna stay on. I'm so tired. & I'm so sore. All I want right now is Mama's home made hot hot tea w/ lemon on the side. After 6 days straight going out, I think today I'm just gonna stay in the house and rest. I gotta get myself better for tomorrow. Its my baby Julie Le's party! And we gotta party "hard". But the way I'm feeling right now, I don't think I can. )'= Well back to bed. Current favorite song; Back Again - Andre Merritt

Beginnings.

I keep on blogging, and then stopping. I'm never being consistent. But I think I'm starting to doing it daily now! I just recently made this "twitter" thing, and I've been twittering in it like all day long. But I think I'm using it more as of a blog than a twitter. So I guess I'm back ('= I know I started this like last year. But I'm still new at this, so bare with me.

Summer 09' Oh, can I tell you, how great has it been. Going out, meeting new people, seeing knew things, etc. Finally having that trust of my parents. They're finally treating me the age that I am. They might not be the nicest people when it comes to letting me leave the house, but I know they just care (= It doesn't bother me as much as before. Cos I understand it, now. Best of all this summer, I finally learn who I am, in the inside. I really can be independent. I just can depend of myself when it comes to anything. Handling my own problems, and being on my own. & I really can prove to myself that If I can have a goal I can achieve it. I know it isn't easy as it seems. But the feeling of finishing one is the best. You feel your body temperature rise, your heart beats fast, and you basically feel like your on top of the world. There's only one person that helped me become this way. Well not help, more like told me I needed to make a dramatic change... I couldn't understand why I needed too, but I'm glad I took that advice and I actually came through and did it. That "Sydnee" you saw around a couple months ago, isn't around anymore ('=